recap of class 3/29

so i presented the video, kinda a 2-fer since i'm afraid of public speaking too. i was nervous about how ppl would react to the music i chose, but it was my choice and i liked it. half of the reason i chose that would be to hype up the anxiety i felt about the music choice if that makes any sense.

then we talked religion. the end.

fear 2/2

my experiment was a success. i was able to look my fear in the face through a fairly safe manor and i definately feel more comfortable around it.

for those who don't know, i am deathly afraid of heights. for example, for spring i went to panama city with about 20ish friends. our room was on the 15th floor and the hallways were exposed to the outside. whenever we traveled to/from our room i would walk as close to the wall as i could; i couldn't even look over the edge. we had guys in another hotel who were on the 19th floor, and were surrounded by concrete. each time i would take a look, all i could see was gravity pulling me down to the concrete.

my experiment was simple, and my girlfriend's idea. she's a lifeguard at the iu nat(atorium), and during one of the lifeguard's inservice sessions they let me walk out on each of the diving platforms and look over the edge. granted i used to swim, and if i did fall there i would land in water, i was still scared sh!tless the first time i went all the way up.

i was actually surprised with people's reactions.

• my girlfriend had explained my fear to all the lifeguards
• they actually cheered when i was all the way up
• aly (gf) was running camera and was a solid model of support
  
• i originally didn't think that this would have any effect on my phobia, but...

i am now not afraid to look down when i'm going to work on the 3rd floor of the campus center. what starts the fear is my overactive imagination. i see myself falling over for whatever reason and all i can think about is the impact. i still see these visualizations, but now i'm not afraid of them.

i've always wanted to go skydiving even though i know i'm so afraid of heights but now i really want to go more because i feel that would help with this phobia that i'm starting to overcome.

for my project i'm making a video, but unfortunately i've had some issues with file formats. i just now was able to convert them into usable files and will start editing now, so hopefully i will have a finished product to show you.

feat 1/2

so since not many ppl know my phobia, and the ones that do won't be there when i conduct it, I SCIENTIFICALLY PREDICT THAT THE CROWD REACTION TO MY EXPERIMENT WILL BE MINIMAL IF ANYONE NOTICES AT ALL. however i can tell that my reaction will be full of fear. i tried to face these fears over spring break in panama city, and sober or not i am still afraid of this phobia, no matter who i'm with or any other circumstance.

my experiment will be conducted around 9pm at the nat on tuesday if anyone wants to come watch, or help document, it will be greatly appreciated.

class 3/1 recap

so class was interesting. the rock show (get it?) was cool. the food was...well i didn't try it. i ate before class. i'm glad i finally showed the class my animation. i wasn't too happy with the result but i was glad i'm finally getting the stones to speak in front of class.

stumble stuff

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2cfNuJ/notdoppler.com/multitask.php
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2WazJ4/blogoscoped.com/files/stripes.html
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1wIb2m/andyslife.org/games/sand.php
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/Abj4BJ/www.nowpublic.com/frozen_tsunami_waves_antartica_0
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2sdryK/copybot.wordpress.com/2009/04/07/the-50-most-interesting-articles-on-wikipedia/
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1voS5U/www.youtube.com/watch%253Fv%253DLkOnsIhIcu8
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2ulOHa/www.neave.com/lab/misc/imagination.html